In Loving Memory of My Son
Raul A. Marin II    08-29-68   *   08-05-98

NOT OUR CHOICE

It was not our CHOICE but the road we must travel was inflicted by the cowardly who never take the blame, their victims are both young and old yet the pain is still the same. To those that suffer such a loss my heart pours out to you. I pray you'll quickly find relief and help to see you through. I hope you know you're not alone and that it's not your fault. That there is help that you can trust to make this evil halt. And please remember that God above who loves you tenderly, and that he hears your every word there’s nothing He can’t see. So our prayer now should be for Justice from up above because the evil ones down here will always be the cowardly who never take the blame.

They think that they have won because they have not been caught but our God has seen all the evil they have done and it’s not over till they meet our Judge from up above and they will have to answer him for all the evil they have done. If I was them I would confess and pay the price right now for here its five to ten maybe 25 or life, but if you have to go to hell, it’s for eternity your Choice for being so cowardly. You thing you're so smart that no one will know the truth but my God was not asleep when you took my loved one’s life. So I might not see Justice here but I know that it will be because no one leaves this world without paying for what they did.

Some may think its OK I confess to God in silence it’s between God and I. I only plan the crime but someone else killed him, [not me] the crime was made because of you his life was taken so you’re as guilty as the one that killed him. But one thing for sure it’s in God’s hands and I might not see or know when you have to pay for what you have done, but it will happen in due time JUSTICE will be done. For it is in my God's Hands

Not our CHOICE to walk this road that was inflicted by the cowardly who never take the blame they think they are brave and tough and have power when they confront the victim but after the crime they run and hide because they are nothing but a wimp hiding for the crime they were so proud to commit. So come on be brave like when you took their life come forth and confess face your punishment be brave, tough and don’t complain, plea-bargain or appeal your case. We have to serve our life sentence without our loved one, your choice to give me so it’s your turn to serve whatever it might be. Five to ten, maybe 25 or life or an ETERNITY!
Ruth Marin-Eason 01-13-09

They say there is a reason. We ask WHY?
They say time will heal. We ask WHEN?

They say that time will heal, But neither time nor reason, Will change the way I feel, for no-one knows the heartache, that lies behind my smile, only someone that has been in the same boat as I. Only someone that has experience this pain

Living without you will never be the same I love you and miss you that hole in my heart will never be filled my new Normal without you always will be an empty hole in my heart no one can see. The memories of you are what keep me alive and I Thank God that those Lovely Memories No One can steal, kill or destroy. They are for an ETERNITY!

No-one knows how many times, I have broken down and cried,
I want to tell you something, So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of, But so hard to be without, but all this evil that came to my family has made me a stronger person and I will fight that evil with GOOD.
My goal now is to help others and I Thank God for His strength to help me with this new journey that was put before me through all the hell I was put through, now I have changed and it's to turn the evil and hate that I felt with the pain I suffered.
Now I help others and all in the Loving Memory of My Son Raul A. Marin II and with God’s help I'll be there for others to tell them to KEEP THEIR LOVE ONE ALIVE and always SPEAK FOR THE ONE'S WITHOUT A VOICE. We are their voice and we speak LOUD and CLEAR to the evil doer, you will have to face the real Judge JESUS CHRIST for we don't leave this world without answering Him for what we have done. So evil doer your time will come!

Friends may think we have forgotten, When at times they see us smile, Little do they know the heartaches, That our smiles hide, all the while. Beautiful memories are wonderful things, That last till the longest day. They never wear out, they never get lost, and can never be given away. To some you may be forgotten, To others, a part of the past, But to those who loved you and lost you, Your memory will always last.

Ruth, The website is so beautiful. We have been friends now for at least 8 years and through the years with all the good and bad, the laughter and the tears, it seems as though we have known each other a lifetime. We know how much you miss your son, you know we know that pain. You are a great friend and a wonderul mom and we know Raul is looking down from Heaven and beaming with delight because he is so proud of you. I know him and Felicia talk and they know how much we hurt. I know we will see our kids again, you've told me so many times and I hold on to that. We love you very much and may God hold you close until you see your handsome son Raul again. Raul, please tell Felicia we love her and miss her so much. We will watch over your mom for you. From our hearts to yours. Love Lou and Carrie

If Tears Could Build A Stairway

If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know
But know we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store
Since you’ll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you’ll always stay

Author Unknown

Cuando un hijo se va.

Madre yo ando ausente, emprendí un viaje
Y así lo debes de entender.
Madre, no estoy muerto, de donde estoy te
Estoy mirando, oigo tus plegarias a Dios
Porque nada me pase, y por eso a Dios le
Doy gracias.
Madre, cuando entres a mi cuarto y no me
veas, di tu oración de siempre.
Dios, cuida a mi hijo, esta noche no llego,
Pero vendrá mañana.
Madre, cuando veas el cielo en alguna nube
Verás algo que te llame la atención, serán mis
Ojos, que desde allá te ver.
Mi ausencia no te debe causar dolor, yo
Regresare contigo y te voy a decir cómo.:
Cuando oigas cantar un pajarito, cuando
Oigas música que me gustaba, cuando sea de
Noche y no llegue pensaras que ando de viaje,
Cuando en la mesa se llegue la hora de comer
Y mi silla este vacía.
No llores por mí ausencia física porque yo
Estaré presente…
Madre, acuérdate del dicho del poeta que
Decía:
Yo salgo con Dios, si no regreso ando con El.

We lost you just ten years ago,
a sorrow that still sings
of all the tears and emptiness
the loss of loved ones brings.
Your day of birth and burial
turned out by chance the same month,
and so each year when it comes round
we feel both joy and pain.
Our sadness comes from missing you,
and missing you from love,
and love from all the love in you
that we became part of.
Your love is still alive in us;
we feel it ever new;
our mourning's filled with happiness
by memories of you
Loving and missing you I go on helping others go through this new journey of throne’s that came to be our new life not by our choice but by your wife (Dianna Boatman-Marin)’s choice and Arnulfo Diaz Ayala they made a bad choice that hurt many people and they will have to meet the Judge of all Judges there is no escape and excuses no matter what happens God is the ultimate judge!

She told me It was one time, one affair, One Mistake well this mistake cannot ever be erase because my Son cannot come back he was murdered and God knows and see’ all. With all the lies and excuses you still have to face Him. That is why I can go on and live this life because I know some day soon JUSTICE will be done. Love is Forever, Love never dies when much Love is giving from a Mom to a Child! So our Love is for Eternity!

THE UNDEFENDED VICTIM

For me, no gavel hammers
The scales were never weighted.
My crime was that of a victim,
My life was the price I paid.
And when my life was taken,
Why weren't my rights read?
And the statement, "overruled"
When they pronounced me dead?
I'll never hear my rights
Nor take the witness stand,
No attorney to defend me,
My fate was in a KILLER'S hand.
Now the courtroom's crowded,
As the defendant pleads the case.
With just the glimmer of a tear,
Cold eyes on a straight face.
But oh, that I could take the stand,
If they could witness my last breath,
Could they live with the terror,
That I went through in death.
If they could hear my pleading cries,
And see the hatred in that face,
At least we'd know the scales had
"Been Balanced" in this case.
If I could, I'd tell the jury
Exactly how it was,
The fear and pain that I went through,
Struck down without a cause.
Did the jury carefully weigh it all
As they listened to the plea?
There were no emotions showing now,
Just the hope of going free.
The final verdict now is in
As the defendant stands in tears,
If only I had done as well...
Given ten to twenty years.

 AUTHOR UNKNOWN

His wife Dianna Boatman Marin only served 7 years 10 months and is free on legal technicality, not innocents! The San Antonio DA could retried the case. One thing for sure she still has to face the real Judge GOD.

Ruth we met you around two years ago, when my parents were murdered.  You have helped us through our pain.  You also helped me overcome some of my fears when my son was also mudered, you went so far as to travel aound 200 miles to attend Bernie's murder trial.  We will forever be grateful to you.  Mrs. Norma,Carol, Janie, Olga, Tony, Elva, Mary, Steve, Lalito, and  Marty.  The Rodriguez Clan from Porter, Texas.

Ruth, keep up the poetry. It has helped me with my pain, I miss
my dear son Carlos so very much! I am trying so very hard to be strong, I doubt I will ever be that again, be well!

The sheep that are My own hear and listen to My voice, and I know them, they follow Me. And I give them eternal life, and they shall never loose it or perish throughout the ages. And no one is able to snatch them out of My had. My Father, Who has given them to Me, is greater and mightier than all, and no one is
able to snatch them out of the father’s hand. I and the Father are one. 
          John 10:27-30 

Mothers Day Cry Your Heart Out!

You’re sitting there all by yourself
hurting and feeling so much pain,
missing your loved one waiting for that call
and your eyes fill up and you can barely see,
then you feel the warmth of your tears running down your face.
And there is no escape, so you just cry.
You’ve got to let it all out.

Just sit there and take it in. Cry out your pain
this is a game that you can’t win. We have to show
our pain it hurts and you can’t help it,
don’t keep it bottled up inside.
Because it will hurt you even more
Sooner or a later you will break down.

You can’t keep it in forever. So let those tears fall.
Cry your heart out. Scream out the pain.
Let all of your emotions drain.
Cry till you can’t cry no more.
Until there are no more tears left in your body.
Missing our loved ones is painful and only a Mom
Can share this with another Mom

Sometimes our family breaks and you don’t understand
Why in a time you need support not all your kids are there for you
Some families are Bless they join together and yet others we
Lose not only the child that was taken from us but also other family members
And the pain doubles with WHY! WHY ME! Our love is always for all our
Children but some don’t understand. Any way one day they will.